What NOT to do.....

I am proof of that, what not to do, not inspiring blah blah blah.........

I stepped on the scale this morning and shows I've gained 5 lbs. I guess I will have to take that, not sure if it's cause I'm dehydrated or if it's just the shitty food I've consumed in the past few days, weeks whatever but the scale never lies right? FFS.

Meh. I'm stressed out with weight loss, the whole thing is on my mind 24/7, I don't know what to do, I can't get my head in the right place to figure out what I need to do. I guess maybe actually not eating crap foods here and there doesn't help, but I haven't been bingeing or anything, just the wrong choices??? I don't know exactly.

I think I need to take a step back and just not think about it. Don't let it take over me. I am driving my self nuts with thinking about it, and talking about it. Trying this, trying that, it's driving me insane. Probably why I am having sleeping issues again. This is taking over my mind.

Work is the shits as well, soooo not happy where I am. I am going to stay where I am work wise till at least after August, there are no jobs out there right now, so hopefully when I plan to leave there will be work somewhere else.

OR.......I can just up and move?? : P But, that's not realistic right now, maybe in a year or so, but not right now.

I am just blabbing right now, so here is to my shitty day.

The only good part of my day is I am going for brunch to a friends house, and it will be lovely to catch up with her. ♥

Bella