The Love of Painting!

I am soo pumped to start painting again! I have been going through a local art supply stores website and checking out prices and all the supplies I will need. I know it will cost me a chunk to get all the supplies I need!

My wonderful dear friend Nancy got me 2 wonderful paint brushes for my Bday! (it was a surprise) It has totally got me in the frame of mind to get back to it. I love painting, it is sooo relaxing, calming. I just picture things in my head and just put it on canvas! My first painting will be dedicated and for Nancy!

Thank You very much for the wonderful gift! Because of you I am determined to get back to my hobby which I am in love with!!

Bella

Happy Birthday to ME!

What a day! It first started off by my big brother calling me in the morning and singing me Happy Birthday! It was a great wake up call!

I got ready and went to a yummy wonderful Brunch to Milestones with him and my SIL. I had very yummy Eggs Bennie, and a wonderful Mimosa Kiss drink (champagne, raspberry liquor and cranberry juice). We then went back to thier place and watched a movie and I played with my nephew Marley (thier dog) and they got me a bottle of sparkling Green Apple Boones and a gift cert to HBC, which I will be spending at Home Outfitters!!!

I came home, and I wanted to just chill, relax etc, but then started cleaning. I felt really good about it and am happy with my day!!!!

I still can't believe that I am 30! Seems like just yesterday I was 19 and leaving home and moving to Edmonton! Time has gone by soo fast!

Now to enjoy my 30s and live life to the fullest I can, do things I havn't done before. Take risks and just be happy with my life so far.

Thanks to my wonderful best friend Izzy who got me flowers, my other best friend Jen who spent the afternoon with me on Saturday and took me out for a wonderful lunch! And to all the wonderful friends who sent me Birthday wishes!!

Smoochies!!!

Bella

Getting through it!?

Aching hearts suck big time! I maybe foolish to feel this way, I can not let go of it. The empty feeling is there, the happiness is gone, when will it go away? I don't know?

Talking about it helps but at the same time doesn't. I need to get the feeling out, I just have to let it go.

I can't even think clearly about it, it just goes around and around and never stops.

I know this post doesn't make sense, but I just sometimes need to put things down and try to figure shit out.

Smoochies

One week to the day

One week till I turn 30!! I am freaking out a bit, trying hard not to think about it for it not to bother me.

I have reflected on what the 20's brought to my life.

- friends came and gone
- found a industry I am very passionate to work in
- became a strong person in many ways, but still have lots of weaknesses
- drifted and came close again with family
the list can go on.

I am not sure what the future will hold for me in my 30's. I am hoping that it will all be good and bring more happiness.

Happy Sunday!!

Smoochies!!

Bella!

Sad, ill etc etc

Yup, that is me........sad today!

Is this what life is supposed to be like? I know I have been hurt before by someone of the opposite sex, but honestly I am sick of it! This last one was a new thing, but when you feel that everything is right and the right signals are there shouldn't it be like that?

How does one know for sure that the other person is wonderful, everything you want them to be, or what you have been looking for for a long time??

Blah...............men suck right now

I think just being single and enjoying being a single woman and living alone is good for me right now. No point in sitting back and waiting for a "good" guy to come along. Well, it is wrong of me to say this guy was not good, cause really he is good. His actions, his words, just him made me believe that I was the one for him or whatever...........uuggghh

I'm frustrated and if I keep on talking I will just be rambling! Whoever reads.........thanks!

Smoochies!!

Bella

Best weekend in a long time!!!

Ok, so I suck at this blog thing. I am not sooo into the whole logging the weight loss thing I guess, so maybe I should just start it for events going on in my life........not that it is exciting or anything but whatev.

This past weekend was the best weekend ever in a long time!

Jen (perkyhappygirl) and I went down to Red Deer where Izzy has her ranch! Azzie was there too waiting for our arrival.....(I secretly love Azzie btw)

My 2 most awesome wonderful best friends came with me to get my very first tattoo! It was something I wanted to do at some point in my life. And on June 15th I will be turning....are you ready??? 30....DADA DAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..........I KNOW!!!! So I figured what better time to do it then for my 30th!! GAG me, seriously.......

So I was nervous as hell, I get really quiet and my hands get twitchy......(Jen and Izzy thought I would chicken out cause I was soo nervous) But I got it done.......the pain wasn't like I thought it would be. I compared it to a really bad burning sensation......kinda like a REALLY REALLY BAD yeast infection.......I got 100% in english for symilies(sorry can't spell).

I am in total love with it!! What I got is exactly what I wanted, and honestly still can't believe I got it and I got it on the inside of my wrist! haha

So after the high of getting an efffing tattoo, we got some booze went to the ranch, got the doggies all acquainted and had a yummy supper, drank and had many many laughs!

Izzy you ROCK!! I love you...you have an amazing home and farm! Thank you very much for the wonderful Bday present......and really all I ever need is you being you and I can never ever ask for anyone to better a better friend then you are!

Jen our late night giggles and laughs and talking.........thank you for being a great wonderful friend and also for the wonderful bday present! Oh and thanks for driving this weekend, it's my turn next time!

Azzie you are hilarious, beautiful person!!! It was sooo great to finally meet you in person!

I think I have rambled on for long enough.........I guess that is what happens when I don't post for months, talk too much! haha

Smoochies everyone who is reading! :)