Happy Holidays!

Another Christmas gone and done with!

I had a nice quiet Christmas with family, lots of laughs and joy all around.

It is time to get back on the band wagon and get things rolling with this journey I am struggling with.  Looking back on the year, there has been changes and struggles.  I am glad to have done so much and met some wonderful people.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday Season and wishing everyone all the best in the New Year!

Smoochies

Bella

Update Time

I haven't posted in a few weeks, sooo what is new?

Christmas is around the corner and I am no where near ready.  I am happy it's going to be a quiet holiday, no big family things really happening, just going to enjoy the time off and relax.  Where has this year gone?  So many good times and memories this past year.

Can anyone say smitten??  hehe  I am, totally 100% smitten with a guy, he is wonderful, sweet, sexy and just a wonderful wonderful person.  Met him through work, wasn't sure if I should or not, but he is simple irresistible.  

On the weight loss health field, not so good.  I went to a doc this week, and he confirmed that I do have PCOS.  He was very upfront with me on my weight, and it was a wake up call.  He is suggesting to my regular doctor to refer me to a health wise clinic for obese at a local hospital here.  There are different options and it will help me determine on where I need to go and what I need to do.  

I know what I NEED to do, just to get started and moving on to a new part of my life and totally change it up, starting today.  Monday I am quitting smoking, cold turkey.  It will be really tough I know that, but it is something I need to do, no choice.

I am going to need some strong support from my family and friends, I know I can count on them.  

Happy Holidays!!

Smoochies

Bella

What's new?

I haven't posted for a couple weeks.

Not much really new with me, still giving it a go with eating etc.  Still having my sleepless nights, getting frustrated with it all. I went back to the doc this week and he is referring me to another OB/GYN for a second opinion.  So hopefully this one will actually give me answers and want to help me with my issues.

In January I am heading to Kelowna to see Pam for a weekend!!  I got a awesome seat sale, so I just couldn't turn it down.  Azzie and others will be coming up there as well, Joni is flying down from Manitoba too!!!  Woot Woot  It will be a fabulous time I reckon.

In February I am going to Arizona for a week, that is a gift from my parents for Christmas.  

Christmas is around the corner, and snow which is WONDERFUL, and no really super cold temps!!!!!  If only winter would be snowless all season!!!

Anyway, figured I would post something and show how none exciting my life is! haha

Smoochies

Bella

Starting again..........

This is probably the millionth time I have restarted and trying to get my head in the game.  The past 2 weeks consisted of eating doritos, halloween candy and chocolate and just not eating well balanced meals.

I went and did grocery shopping this morning and got food for my planned out week of meals.  If I don't plan out what I am going to cook or eat I tend to just grab whatever and it's usually not "good" meals.  

I have also rejoined on line WW again and going to give WW another try rather then the other things I have tried the past few months.  Tracking everything, even going to give weighing out and measuring portions for meals, snacks etc.

I want to lose at least 20 lbs by February for my trip to Arizona.  I know I can do it, I have lots of support and going to take it one day at a time!

Smoochies

Bella

So, Whasss Up??

Not much happening with me............

Had a bad weekend of eating shitty food, need to get my groove back. Easier said then done right??

What are the steps to take to make a person make the right steps to a great life?

I believe one has to have a great mind set and make things happen for them. Friends and family will always be there for support, but it's just to make it happen for your self. For me, I have yet to find it. No matter how much support I have I can't seem to have it stick with me. Maybe I need to work on being more positive and look at things deep within my self. Why am I overweight, what can I do to stay motivated, what do I need to keep going with things?

No more excuses (probably said that a million times already). It has to happen, it needs to be done. I have so many things to look forward to in the next few months. I have lots I want to accomplish in life as far as work, education, travel.

Did anything I say make sense? haha I ramble with my thoughts and when I put them down sometimes they just don't gel together.

Thanks for listening!

Smoochies

Bella

New Hair!!

What a wonderful day!!

Perky and I went and got our hair done. I wasn't sure exactly what I wanted to do, I had an idea and my hair stylist did a wonderful job as usual. I got high lights and low lights in colors I have never had before, and I love it!






Smoochies!

Bella

October Long Weekend!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!

This weekend has been good, but going too fast! Today my bro and I went to the farm and hung out with mom and dad, just the 4 of us (it's been a while since it's been the 4 of us....weird). Mom cooked an awesome turkey, yummy salad, mashed spuds, nachinka and creamy lazy cabbage rolls and a crustless pumpkin pie!!!!!!!! I never over did it, never got to the point where I was extremely full, just right. Of course we got send home with turkey and other left overs.

I hooked up my parents Wii and sorted out their satellite issues and got it working for them!

I took a nice walk around the farm and snaped some photos:

This is the view from the house, our very long drive way, which we had to walk while in school to get on the bus. In the winter we paid for the bus driver to come pick us up at the house.

This is one of the many great views from the yard, our house is on a hill so we can see into a valley, in the summer the view is totally amazing!!!

My Mama and Daddy!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful long weekend!

Smoochies

Bella

Update

I haven't posted in a couple weeks, so here is an update of events in my life.

Week one of being back at work went quite fast! Happy to have a job and a place I love going everyday and having fun and laughing tons!! I love my boys, they rock!! Today I weighed my self after not doing so for 3 weeks and was pleasantly surprised that I have stayed the same!! Whaaa??

I am still finding it hard to get active though, I don't push my self enough and I am hoping to bring my parents elliptical machine here so I can go on. I just need to get active, just need to find the way to get off my ass.

Jen and I went for a nice lunch today and then went to Micheals and I got some paint, brushes and canvas. It was heaven standing there looking at all the brushes and paints. I haven't been that excited since going to Vancouver, but it was a different kind of excitement. I don't get excited very often soo, it was pure joy!!

I am going to do a painting this weekend I think and practice, I am hoping it will turn out well enough to show people! Since it is Autumn and it's my most favorite season, I will paint something based on this time of year.

Happy Autumn and Happy Painting!!

Smoochies
Bella

Best Weekend EVER!!!

My trip to Vancouver was this past weekend and I had the time of my life!!! I had such a great time, meeting girls from the GDT in person (Brodie, Blingy Bling, Shrunk, Zolly, Sullysgirl, Bookworm, Chocolatemousse, Goona, BCAmber), and seeing Azzie and Pamalam again!!!! We laughed sooo much, had lots of drinks and talks and just plan old fun!

Saturday we had a Sushi lunch (seriously the best Sushi I have ever had!!!) then we went to a Gelato place that had 218 flavors (I had Mint Chocolate Fudge Brownie YUM). Later we all went to Brodies place and made our Vanity shirts and got ready to drink drink drink!! We pulled out the Rock Band, did jello shooters, talked and laughed and talked more. I will never forget Parrot Hilton, he was the man of the evening!

Sunday was recover day..........we went to buffet breakfast and then chilled back at Brodies house and laughed somemore. Brodie and I went for pedicures and dinner and spent the evening talking and watched a movie. I am soooo glad I have met so many wonderful woman across the country. Every single one of them have a place in my heart and I cherish our friendship! I LOVE Yall and can not wait to see you again!!!!!!!!!!

Smoochies!

Bella

Boo Up .9 this week!

This week was a little tougher, I was expecting a bigger gain but still .9 is a downer. This week will be better though, have to just stick to it and get through the downs.

1 week to Vanity!!! I can not wait, it will be sooo fun and to meet everyone from Vancouver!!! Other then that, not much else to report but to stay positive and continue on with things as best as I can!

Smoochies

Bella

Wishy Washy Week!

This past week was a stressful one, too much happening, too emotional etc etc. I ate too much junk, lacked on water, all in all a crappy week.
I stayed the same even though I was expecting a gain. This week I have my portion trays and will use them while cooking on my own for the next couple weeks.

Making a time line for weight loss I find is not a good idea for me, I just disappoint my self and then get into the wrong mind set.. I can never seems to do what I plan. I am going to pull out the ol soup cans and do weights and go for my walks in the evening. I have to work out my knee, it has been bothering me lately; it could be cause of the weather change, not sure.

Here is to a week of sticking to it and rocking it!

13 days till Vanity, and sooo effing pumped!!

Smoochies
Bella

Down another 1.4!!!

Woot Woot! Total of 7.7 lbs lost so far!!!





I had a bad week with craving sugar, any kind of sugar and salty foods as well! I drank tons of water to try make up for all of it and got in some walking as well!





This coming week I will be sticking to plan........when I am craving sugar I am going to make some sugar free Jello and see if that will help. Got to get down down down!!!!!!

3 weeks till Vanity baby!!!

Smoochies!
Bella

A Very Happy Weekend!!

I am very happy this weekend with my weight loss!!! DOWN 2.7 this week!!!! I have found something that I am happy about and works for me! And I am sticking with it 200%!!!

The Hotness Sistas is our little group (Brodie & Blingy and I) We FB each other every single day with updates on how the days are going, if we need a kick in the ass or just to give some inspirational words to each other!!! Each of us rocked this week, and will continue to rock!!

This week have set goals for ourselves of where we want to be at certain times for events, holidays etc etc.

Over all, this week has been wonderful!! Here is to another week of great losses and to me getting in some exercise!!

Smoochies
Bella

New start again, New adventure!!!

Today, was a new beginning for me...............I know I know, always seem to be starting over with things, but this one is different!

I know this one will work (trying to stay positive). I have no choice but to do something good for me, my body and health. 2 weeks with out weighing my self and I gotta say I am very surprised with it. I was expecting a good gain and I was down 1.8 from 2 weeks ago. YAY!!!!

Week 1 of new adventures and changes in my life. Wish me luck!!

Smoochies!

Bella

Down ONLY .6!??

BLAH.........I am not happy about this at all! I am not sure why I am not losing more, it's really starting to get frustrating! Not matter what I am sticking to eating properly, drinking tons of water, starting to get in more walks. Still doesn't answer the question though......hmmmm

Well, I guess all I can do is just continue on and keep hoping for a better weigh in next week!

On Sept 20th I am heading to Vancouver to meet a few of my favorite girls from the GDT, Brodes, Blingy Bling and Shrunk!!!!!! I can NOT wait!! It is going to be a wonderful time.....thank God I have the following week off to recover!! YAY!!! hehe

Smoochies!

Down .2.....SIGH

Not too overly happy, but I will just have to work harder this week, get more water in and more exercise. I was expecting a gain to be honest, so I guess .2 is better then a gain!

This weekend my cousin Dinis got married!! It was a perfect day for a wedding, everyone looked great. Tears were shed, many many laughs with family and seeing people I havn't seen in a really long time!

Here is to a better weigh in next weekend!

Smoochies!

Down 1.4 Lbs

Well, today was week 1 weigh in and I am down 1.4!

I was honestly hoping for a bigger lose, but I will take it!

This week I am going to get more exercise in and stay on track again! I really really want a good weigh in next week!

Smoochies!

New start, New Beginning

Yesterday Jen and I went to my very first WW meeting. I wasn't sure what to expect but I enjoyed it. It was good to see others there that had huge success with their journey. I am going to stick it out this time, and I am hoping going to the meetings will help me along the way.

It is hard for me to stick to things because I get bored with things easily, but I am going to push my self to stick with it. I want better things, I want to look in the mirror and see my self for once where I can look and see someone new.......in a good way.

Today I am sitting and planning out my meals, snacks everything that goes into my mouth. Planning is the key....I think?? haha I want a lose this week, I know what it's like to see that and how it feels and it feels great, I WANT that!

Thanks to my wonderful friends who are here to help me and support me through this!

Smoochies!

Bella

One of the best weekends ever!!

Ashley and Joni came to Edmonton this past weekend and it was a wonderful time!

It started off on the Le Ranche (Izzy's farm) Friday night, and it was super fun! Lots and lots of laughs, talks, boob grabbing and much more!! hehehe

Saturday we headed back to Etown, and watched Pam, Izzy and Ash sky dive, then went for a wonderful dinner and then walked down Whyte Ave.

It was wonderful to have all us girls together, having such great friends is the best thing anyone could ever have!

Jen(perky) and I are going to start going to WW meetings on Saturday and that will motivate myself and Jen to stick to program. There is nothing more I want then to lose this tire I am carrying around once and for all. I want to look wonderful and be able to wear cute little outfits to show the girlie girl in me!!

The Love of Painting!

I am soo pumped to start painting again! I have been going through a local art supply stores website and checking out prices and all the supplies I will need. I know it will cost me a chunk to get all the supplies I need!

My wonderful dear friend Nancy got me 2 wonderful paint brushes for my Bday! (it was a surprise) It has totally got me in the frame of mind to get back to it. I love painting, it is sooo relaxing, calming. I just picture things in my head and just put it on canvas! My first painting will be dedicated and for Nancy!

Thank You very much for the wonderful gift! Because of you I am determined to get back to my hobby which I am in love with!!

Bella

Happy Birthday to ME!

What a day! It first started off by my big brother calling me in the morning and singing me Happy Birthday! It was a great wake up call!

I got ready and went to a yummy wonderful Brunch to Milestones with him and my SIL. I had very yummy Eggs Bennie, and a wonderful Mimosa Kiss drink (champagne, raspberry liquor and cranberry juice). We then went back to thier place and watched a movie and I played with my nephew Marley (thier dog) and they got me a bottle of sparkling Green Apple Boones and a gift cert to HBC, which I will be spending at Home Outfitters!!!

I came home, and I wanted to just chill, relax etc, but then started cleaning. I felt really good about it and am happy with my day!!!!

I still can't believe that I am 30! Seems like just yesterday I was 19 and leaving home and moving to Edmonton! Time has gone by soo fast!

Now to enjoy my 30s and live life to the fullest I can, do things I havn't done before. Take risks and just be happy with my life so far.

Thanks to my wonderful best friend Izzy who got me flowers, my other best friend Jen who spent the afternoon with me on Saturday and took me out for a wonderful lunch! And to all the wonderful friends who sent me Birthday wishes!!

Smoochies!!!

Bella

Getting through it!?

Aching hearts suck big time! I maybe foolish to feel this way, I can not let go of it. The empty feeling is there, the happiness is gone, when will it go away? I don't know?

Talking about it helps but at the same time doesn't. I need to get the feeling out, I just have to let it go.

I can't even think clearly about it, it just goes around and around and never stops.

I know this post doesn't make sense, but I just sometimes need to put things down and try to figure shit out.

Smoochies

One week to the day

One week till I turn 30!! I am freaking out a bit, trying hard not to think about it for it not to bother me.

I have reflected on what the 20's brought to my life.

- friends came and gone
- found a industry I am very passionate to work in
- became a strong person in many ways, but still have lots of weaknesses
- drifted and came close again with family
the list can go on.

I am not sure what the future will hold for me in my 30's. I am hoping that it will all be good and bring more happiness.

Happy Sunday!!

Smoochies!!

Bella!

Sad, ill etc etc

Yup, that is me........sad today!

Is this what life is supposed to be like? I know I have been hurt before by someone of the opposite sex, but honestly I am sick of it! This last one was a new thing, but when you feel that everything is right and the right signals are there shouldn't it be like that?

How does one know for sure that the other person is wonderful, everything you want them to be, or what you have been looking for for a long time??

Blah...............men suck right now

I think just being single and enjoying being a single woman and living alone is good for me right now. No point in sitting back and waiting for a "good" guy to come along. Well, it is wrong of me to say this guy was not good, cause really he is good. His actions, his words, just him made me believe that I was the one for him or whatever...........uuggghh

I'm frustrated and if I keep on talking I will just be rambling! Whoever reads.........thanks!

Smoochies!!

Bella

Best weekend in a long time!!!

Ok, so I suck at this blog thing. I am not sooo into the whole logging the weight loss thing I guess, so maybe I should just start it for events going on in my life........not that it is exciting or anything but whatev.

This past weekend was the best weekend ever in a long time!

Jen (perkyhappygirl) and I went down to Red Deer where Izzy has her ranch! Azzie was there too waiting for our arrival.....(I secretly love Azzie btw)

My 2 most awesome wonderful best friends came with me to get my very first tattoo! It was something I wanted to do at some point in my life. And on June 15th I will be turning....are you ready??? 30....DADA DAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..........I KNOW!!!! So I figured what better time to do it then for my 30th!! GAG me, seriously.......

So I was nervous as hell, I get really quiet and my hands get twitchy......(Jen and Izzy thought I would chicken out cause I was soo nervous) But I got it done.......the pain wasn't like I thought it would be. I compared it to a really bad burning sensation......kinda like a REALLY REALLY BAD yeast infection.......I got 100% in english for symilies(sorry can't spell).

I am in total love with it!! What I got is exactly what I wanted, and honestly still can't believe I got it and I got it on the inside of my wrist! haha

So after the high of getting an efffing tattoo, we got some booze went to the ranch, got the doggies all acquainted and had a yummy supper, drank and had many many laughs!

Izzy you ROCK!! I love you...you have an amazing home and farm! Thank you very much for the wonderful Bday present......and really all I ever need is you being you and I can never ever ask for anyone to better a better friend then you are!

Jen our late night giggles and laughs and talking.........thank you for being a great wonderful friend and also for the wonderful bday present! Oh and thanks for driving this weekend, it's my turn next time!

Azzie you are hilarious, beautiful person!!! It was sooo great to finally meet you in person!

I think I have rambled on for long enough.........I guess that is what happens when I don't post for months, talk too much! haha

Smoochies everyone who is reading! :)

Pumped for Toronto!!

I can not wait for this trip! It is going to be so fun, and just can't wait to meet all the girls from the GDT!!!

I need time away from normal everyday life. It will be sooo nice to get away from all the madness.

10 more days to go, come one March 14th!!!

Hump Day

I am so happy there are only 2 more days left until the weekend. I am in better spirits today, but just look forward to the weekends. I am happy that I got a doc appt for Friday and hopefully my doc can maybe give me some insight on my moods.

I can't wait till thr TO trip, I need a get away from this place, eventhough it will be a short trip it will be nice to go have fun.

I have been OP all week so far, havn't worked out everyday, but have 2 out of 3, so I guess that is better then none!!

Grumble Grumble

Have you ever felt like you don't know where you are in life?

I am at the point I think. I am single (still) at a job where I love the coworkers, but not the company and not fullfilled with the job and not completely happy with my self on the outside and inside. I have been moody off and on, not sure what is causing it!? I have a feeling it has to do with hormones?? Will see what the doc says when I am able to get in appt.
The more I think about it, I am turning 30 in June and I am not sure yet where I want to be in life........is that weird? I have been thinking....hmmmm......where do I go? what do I want? I will be 30 but I don't know this yet....there has got to be something wrong with me??
Do I need a change? If so, what kind of change? Sell my house and move to a new city, move into a new place and downgrade? Then I think, if I do that then how would I be able to be far from my family?
Where is life supposed to take us?

Am I supposed to just let things happen? Sit back and just go with the flow? How does one figure things out? Where to go for guidence and figure shit out? Can someone please show me the light and just tell me what I am supposed to do? I am confused I think and just don't know!?

(sorry for the the rambling)

SIGH

Jan

TO Invasion Challenge

WOOT WOOT..........I lost 2 lbs last week. I am really happy about that, only 18 more to go for my TO goal, but I am hoping to lose more by March 15.

I have been OP eating good everyday, drinking my water, having balanced meals and actually not being hungry.

Today, after work instead of just sitting and watching tv I changed my clothes and put on my walking shows and went on my "dreadmill" for 15 mins. OY it felt forever!! lol
I am sure everyday will be easier, I am soooooo out of shape. I know I have lots of people supporting me and am VERY greatful to have friends like that!! If it wasn't for them most days I don't think I would have faith in my self.

Well, I figured I should try get on here more and post.

Till next time folks.........

Keep it real