Here I go again

So, after thinking to my self over and over. I am going to continue on the 'lifestyle change'. Not that I stopped or anything, but I haven't been caring or really paying attn to what I've been putting into my mouth. So after a box of cookies later, a few bags of chips, cheese dips, chocolate bars, ice cream and not weighing for a couple weeks............I am back in the saddle again. I weighed this morning and I was up 1.2, so that puts me at 298.2. *gag* '

It's getting back to work, starting and finishing off the summer right. Get back to exercising everyday (no matter what the temp is outside, no excuses), watching what I am eating. Focusing on my self, getting healthier, getting back to going down down down, rather then up, stall, up. I know I can do this, I just have to do it, no option. I won't be tracking, no counting calories. I find that is just too much pressure right now. But, I will weigh and measure all my food, plan out my food every day as normal.

I want the happy back, I want to get rid of the tiredness, the lazy hum drum I have been feeling to be gone. wish me luck!

Bella ♥

Gone too fast

I can't believe the week is over already. Seriously, why do holidays go so fast, but when you are at work the days go by so slow?? I do admit by mid week I was bored out of my mind. I am used to going away somewhere, and I probably will continue to do that for holidays. A week at home is just not enough for me. haha It is way better then being at work, don't get me wrong, I just need to travel for part of the vacation to even it all out.

Last night I had a little bit of a melt down, frustration, anxiety about some things. I can't remember the last time I had a cry like that. I thought I was going to lose my marbles. Being emotional is sooo exhausting. I feel like I am at a loss for a bunch of things and don't know why I can't get a grip on things.

I heard on the tv today that the 30s are the new 20s.....meaning in your 30s now a days, people are starting to figure out them selves, where they are going in life, what they want, who they are, finding their path so to speak. I honestly agree with that. In my 20s I was all about partying, living the careless life. My future didn't matter to me, like it does now. It's taking that step to make the changes. How does one do that? Do they turn to professionals? Friends? Family? for the answers? Or do they just try figure it all out them selves?

So, today here I sit thinking about what to do, where to go, when to do it. It's never too late to do something, right? Whether it's finding a new career, educating your self, getting healthier, and sometimes changing who you are as a person doesn't hurt, right? I sure as hell hope I figure shit out soon, even if those changes might cause me heart ache, life isn't easy, and it hurts sometimes, but it's the step you have to take to find that road you want to go down.

Smooches

Bella ♥

Holidays!!

I can't update on my weight as I forgot to weigh yesterday and this morning. I did peek earlier this week and it showed 1 up, so I will take that. Meh whatever. I haven't been focusing on following the plan, my mind has been somewhere else. Tracking pts is boring me, which is why I haven't tracked this past week. I haven't ate horrible maybe the only thing was pizza and wings, but they wouldn't have put me over my weekly pts.
I have to find some other diet or "life style change" to do. Obviously WW isn't doing it for me, not sure where the problem is. I am not giving up, don't get me wrong, just need to give something else a try, not sure what, but when I find it I will let you know.

I am on holidays this week. I forget sometimes, then when I remember I don't have to get up Monday morning, I get all giddy inside. : p I have lots I want to do, like clean out my spare room that has collected a bunch of junk....you know the room you just throw stuff in cause you don't want to deal with stuff at the moment, and I also have to clean out my garage too as well as just other things around the yard.

YAY Holidays. L♥ve!

Bella

Feel Good

Despite my .8 gain, I am alright with it. Did I expect it? No. But, why stress my self over it, really, there is no point anymore. I just gotta keep going on and never give up. I am not even trying to think why I would be up, well ok maybe I did for a couple seconds (water, bloat ing, pms, the heat). But, whatev, I am feeling good and happy, and getting in the right mind set.

In a week, I will be on holidays. Soooo can not wait. I am usually the big traveler going somewhere, but this time I am having a week at home. I have a few big projects I want to get done in the house, so I will be doing that among other things like, sleeping in during the week, going shopping during the DAY, and just not being at work, and get rid of stress. : )

Here is to a good week, and seriously hoping to break this stump.

Bella ♥

Down 1

To my surprise I was down 1 this week. Wasn't expecting it at all, since I had a stress eating day on Wednesday (BPs cactus chips, pizza, cake). I feel good about it, and going to continue on with things and just fight the hunger.

On my grocery trip tom orrow, I am going to stay away from buying snackie food items like, 100 cal paks (cookies, crackers etc stuff like that). If I am feeling hungry, I will be grabbing the water bottle or pre cut up veggies. I think the culprit is the snackie things, it's gotta be, cause I sometimes won't have just one pak, 2 are satisfying, non filling items. SO, that is one goal, stay away from snackiesthis week and see how it goes. Second, exercise more, I feel great after doing WATP (walk away the pounds) and I slacked this week. Do it at least 3 days!

Smooches

Bella ♥