Gone too fast

I can't believe the week is over already. Seriously, why do holidays go so fast, but when you are at work the days go by so slow?? I do admit by mid week I was bored out of my mind. I am used to going away somewhere, and I probably will continue to do that for holidays. A week at home is just not enough for me. haha It is way better then being at work, don't get me wrong, I just need to travel for part of the vacation to even it all out.

Last night I had a little bit of a melt down, frustration, anxiety about some things. I can't remember the last time I had a cry like that. I thought I was going to lose my marbles. Being emotional is sooo exhausting. I feel like I am at a loss for a bunch of things and don't know why I can't get a grip on things.

I heard on the tv today that the 30s are the new 20s.....meaning in your 30s now a days, people are starting to figure out them selves, where they are going in life, what they want, who they are, finding their path so to speak. I honestly agree with that. In my 20s I was all about partying, living the careless life. My future didn't matter to me, like it does now. It's taking that step to make the changes. How does one do that? Do they turn to professionals? Friends? Family? for the answers? Or do they just try figure it all out them selves?

So, today here I sit thinking about what to do, where to go, when to do it. It's never too late to do something, right? Whether it's finding a new career, educating your self, getting healthier, and sometimes changing who you are as a person doesn't hurt, right? I sure as hell hope I figure shit out soon, even if those changes might cause me heart ache, life isn't easy, and it hurts sometimes, but it's the step you have to take to find that road you want to go down.

Smooches

Bella ♥